Monday, 31 December 2018

2018 Project Pan Finale

Now that we've reached the last day of 2018 it's time to let you know how I did with my Project Pan this year.

I totally forgot that I'd planned to do a low buy one month and no buy the next month, that went out the window. I did rein in my spending and purchased a lot less than I normally would. Even when we went to the Gold Coast I still didn't buy as much as I expected.

I'm finding that buying make-up isn't as exciting as it used to be. There isn't a great selection where I live, so most items have to be purchased online, which takes the fun out of it. Getting the packages is great fun, but for me half the pleasure of buying make-up is looking at it, swatching colours etc before making my decision. Plus, I already have so much that it seems pointless to collect more when I have so many products sitting there unloved. 

However, back to the topic. How did I go with my project pan? I was hoping to finish 50 products for the year.

I finished 60 products!

The tally is very interest and I plan to use it to help guide my purchases next year. I finished:

8 foundations
7 primers
1 setting spray
4 eye liners
1 eye shadow
2 blushes
3 brow products
5 make-up tools
6 mascaras
14 lip balms
7 tinted lip balms/glosses/lipsticks
2 lip primers

I started using setting spray at the end of November, so I'll use more of them next year. Foundations I go through regularly, although I have enough to last me all year without the need to buy more. I've found my holy grail mascara now, so will go through four of them a year as I change my mascara every three months. I've got enough lip products to last me a lifetime, so don't need to buy them again.

One thing that I didn't finish is concealer. Whilst I could use concealer every day, I don't. I have dark circles and patches I could cover up, but I rarely bother. If concealer didn't take so much effort I would wear it daily, but it takes way too much effort to ensure the concealer doesn't crease and I just don't have the time for that. 

I've culled regularly throughout the year and overall I'm happy with my collection, with the exception of lip products. I still have way too many so I'll continue to cull whenever the fancy takes me. I went through 23 lip products, so I do get through them quickly but still have a long way to go to get down to a number I'm happy with.  

That concludes my 2018 project pan. I'm looking forward to tossing out everything I've collected over the year and starting fresh for 2019.

If you'd like to follow my 2018 project pan, you can read my original post here, first update here, second update here, third update here and fourth update here

Did you do a project pan this year? How did it go?

Sunday, 30 December 2018

Thoughts of the week

1. I've been going to the gym for around a month now and it's so much fun! I never thought I'd say that, but I'm really enjoying it. Having an amazing gym helps, if you're ever in Bunbury check out World Gym, it's amazing and nowhere as intimidating as it might seem.

2. After buying Lorna Jane leggings I now understand why people wear active wear all the time, it's so comfortable!

3. How is 2018 nearly over?

4. Who's got new years plans? We're planning on a lovely quiet evening doing nothing at all.

5. Yesterday I went to the hairdresser and went dark for summer. Everyone else was getting highlights and going lighter, but I love my dark hair!

Friday, 28 December 2018

FFS Friday - Legless

We've nearly made it through the silly season! How are you all? Have any sanity left? Mine abandoned me years ago.

Today I'm here to rant about gym clothing. Back when I used to exercise I didn't have to worry about active wear. I did martial arts so wore a gi or thai shorts and a singlet. When I went walking I wore a short skirt and if I went running I wore shorts. Easy. Fast forward to now and it's not so easy.

Buying active wear when you aren't fit is a cruel kind of torture. Back when I used to exercise daily, active wear wasn't confined to short shorts or leggings like it is now.

When I started at the gym, I naively went looking for some shorts. I don't want short shorts, I want loose shorts that come to mid thigh. I've now discovered that they don't exist. It's either short shorts or leggings. Initially I refused to consider leggings (why highlight my chunky bits!) however I quickly realised that I had no choice but to purchase leggings. FFS!

Now, you'd think that leggings would be quite simple, but they aren't. Do you want full length leggings, ankle leggings, 7/8 leggings, crop leggings or bike shorts? Once you've figured out the length you like, then you need to decide whether you want low rise, mid rise or high rise.

Added to that is the undie problem. I hate a VPL but refuse to wear a g-string. My days of wearing a g-banger are well and truly over. Thankfully one of my friends told me about seamless undies and the VPL issue was solved. Kmart seamless undies are great. Target laser cut undies are crap.

After figuring out that I like high rise (stops the muffin top), crop leggings. I headed to Target, bought a pair and took them home. After wearing them twice, the side seams split. I figured that maybe they were too small (they didn't feel too small), so bought the next size up. They split too. I returned both pairs. FFS.

Okay, Target ones are crap, good to know. Off to Kmart. Black is boring, so I bought a grey pair. I got them home, tried them on and realised they're see through. FFS. 
Why would they make see through leggings? Those ones went back too.

One of my friends loves Cotton On leggings. I grabbed two pairs during their boxing day sale. Stupidly I purchased a grey pair and surprise surprise, they're see through. The other pair I bought were black and they were split on the sides before I even tried them on. FFS.

By this time I was feeling very frustrated and considering buying a pair of mens shorts. I headed to Big W. The Michelle Bridges leggings looked really nice. They had a few different styles that I liked, so I decided to give them a go. They didn't have one single pair in my size. FFS!

By this time I was more than ready to give up, when I realised that Lorna Jane was having 20% off all stock. I headed in there and got lots of help from the lovely staff. Stupidly I took Tiger and the boys with me. Actually it was lucky I had Tiger with me, because he's the one who convinced me to go in there and to spend the money on a good quality pair. Anyhow, after half an hour, about ten different pairs of leggings, lots of inspections to make sure I didn't have a camel toe, flashing the whole store twice (thanks to the boys racing in and out of my change room playing super heroes), I spent a lot of money on two pairs of leggings. 

Unlike the cheap leggings, these ones suck me in and make my bum look amazing! I shall wear them for a few weeks then report back, but I can already tell you they're the most comfortable leggings I've tried so far.

That brings me to my next rant. Why are women's clothes always so tight? We don't all want to wear skin tight clothes. Trying to get clothes, especially pants, that aren't skin tight is really difficult and it shits me to tears. Men's clothing comes in different fits, why isn't women's clothing the same? Surely there must be some brands out there that make nice, flattering, non skin tight clothes and active wear for women? If you know of any, point me in their direction please. 

Rant over.

Monday, 24 December 2018

Pan the Pots Final Update

My Pan the Pots project is over! How did I go?

If you're new here, at the end of March I decided that my potted lip balms needed some love, so challenged myself to finish six lip product pots by the end of this year.

You can read my first post here, first update here and second update here.

Update two: Five products finished, one to go

So, it's time for me to let you know that.....I failed at the final hurdle. I was doing so well, I'd finished five pots and only had one to go. So what went wrong? Firstly, I couldn't find a lip product that I liked and wanted to use. I swapped them out for about a month until I settled on my Shanghai Lil and the Scarlet Fez Jersey Caramel balm. I was happily using it (it's a beautiful balm) and made a decent dent in it, then for no particular reason I lost momentum and forgot all about my project pan. 

Every now and again I'd see it sitting next to my computer and use it, but not often enough to finish it. 

Despite my failure, I'm still pleased that I managed to finish five potted balms in nine months, it feels like a pretty good effort. 

Moving forward I'm making sure that I am always working on one lip product pot. I've left a few around the house so I'll apply them throughout the day. I've also stopped buying lip products in pots, because I just don't use them. My aim is to use up my current stash and be done with potted lip products.

Friday, 21 December 2018

FFS Friday - Done like a dinner

Finally, after nearly six years, we've decided we're done. Done with FIFO. We have an end date. At last!

We never intended to be a FIFO family. It wasn't supposed to be a long term option and yet here we are coming up to six years.

Initially it was a stop gap, a job to keep us going until we moved down south and Tiger found something locally. There were a few huge projects due to start and plenty of work. Once we moved down here all those jobs were canned and there was no work locally.

It's no secret that I hate FIFO. I hate being left on my own to deal with everything. It's not what I want. Over the years, every time I've tried to discuss it with Tiger, all I get is "But I love my job". To which my reply has always been "Well that's great, as long as you're happy, who cares that the three of us hate it and are going through hell". 

Tigers solution is for us to move up north. Not an option. I hate the heat and Chai doesn't cope with it either. Being confined to the house for four months of the year would be horrible. 

The final straw for me was when Chai got sick last month. Having to deal with it all on my own was the straw that broke the camels back. Tiger came down for one night and that was it. He didn't come home with us, just left me to deal with it all once again.  

Tiger got to the hospital at 7pm and left with Eljay and Mum around 9.30pm. The next morning he was with us at the hospital for a few hours, loaded us into the car then stayed in the city whilst I went home with the boys. This meant that as per usual, I was dealing with everything on my own.

What's the point in having a partner who's only around half of the time? It's not what I signed up for and I'm done.

We've now agreed that Tiger will come home at the end of next year. Finally there is an end in sight.

There's so much of our lives that Tiger has no idea about because he's not here. They may seem like small, insignificant things, but those small things are what life is made up of. The way we do things, what's happening in the boys life and all sorts of other things that he's missed out on. 

Added to that, it's all the little decisions I have to make and situations I have to deal with by myself because he's away. After six years, I'm over it. I don't want to do everything anymore. 

I have no idea how I'm going to survive the next twelve months because I truly am done. I just don't have it in me to do everything myself anymore. I will survive because I have to choice and because finally, after all this time, I have an end date. 

Happy days.

Tuesday, 18 December 2018

My favourite matte liquid lipsticks

I am not a fan of matte lipsticks in general and I really don't like matte liquid lipsticks, they are so drying and make my lips look awful. No-one wants shrivelled prune lips.

Thankfully formulas are improving all the time and I've found three matte liquid lipstick formulas that are long wearing and comfortable to wear.  

The Australis Grl Boss lipsticks are the newest addition to my collection. I have one shade and am planning on adding more. There are fifty shades, so it's not difficult to find one that you love. The formula is creamy, hydrating and long lasting. These don't dry down, they stay creamy, which means they do transfer a little, but that doesn't affect the longevity at all. 
Australis have just released a Grl Boss lipstick version which I'd be interested to try.

Bite Beauty can do no wrong. I'm yet to find one of their products I don't love. Amuse Bouche Liquified lipstick is a gorgeous product, it has a satin finish, is as hydrating as a lip balm, gives opaque coverage and lasts all day. If (like me) you are a fan of flavoured lip products, you'll be pleased to know that these have a lovely citrus flavour.

I wouldn't have tried the Revlon Ultra HD Matte Lipcolor if Emma hadn't given me one. I assumed it'd be like all the other matte liquid lipsticks that I hate, but it's not. The colour is opaque in one swipe, doesn't feel at all drying and dries down to a glossy matte. I love the oval shaped tube because it doesn't take up as much space as a round tube, so it's more convenient to carry around.

What's your favourite matte liquid lipstick?

Sunday, 16 December 2018

Thoughts of the week

1 Who's making new years resolutions? I've got nothing so far.

2. Tarte Shape Tape is finally available in Australia. I'd really love to buy it, but won't until I've got through the mountain of concealers that I currently own. If you've tried it, please let me know what it's like/how much I need it.

3. Along with Shape Tape, Pat McGrath products are also available. I'll be passing on them, they're so very expensive!

4. Now that I'm going to the gym, I need active wear. If you know where I can get good quality, reasonably priced stuff, please let me know!

5. Today Andalou Naturals are half price at Priceline. It's a great time to try their Pumpkin Glycolic Mask.

Friday, 14 December 2018

FFS Friday - Emergency Tribe

I've mentioned before that I feel alone most of the time, like I don't have a tribe. 

Over the last few weeks I've come to realise that whilst I don't have an everyday tribe, I do have an emergency tribe. They're the people that I call on in an emergency. 

When Chai got sick I needed my tribe and they were there. Mum came to hospital with me, Mum and Stepdad stayed with us for a week whilst Chai was recovering. 
Lisa looked after our house, checked the mail etc.
Dad kept an eye on the house, locked it all up (after I left in a rush) and sorted out Shelby.
SIL looked after Shelby and bought over a meal for us the night we got home from hospital. 

These are my people and I'm so very grateful for them. 

Monday, 10 December 2018

The Physic Garden Luna Balm

Today I present to you the prettiest body lotion I've ever seen. Not only is it pretty, it smells beautiful and is a delight to use.

According to The Physic Garden, Luna Balm was inspired by the moon, it honours your divine feminine self, inspiring confidence and love to carry with you throughout your day.

Luna Balm is infused with moonstone and sacred flower oils, designed to help you connect to your intuition and the divine feminine energy within you. Moonstone helps illuminate the Goddess within and allows her to step forward with confidence. Violet, a sacred plant of Venus, helps to bring deep healing to our feminine self. Jasmine and neroli awaken sensuality and open our hearts to pure love. 

Doesn't that sound amazing? After reading that write up, I couldn't wait to get my hands on Luna Balm. 

There's a moonstone in it!

I use my Luna balm at night to help me wind down before bed. The scent is calming and relaxing. My legs (which have been really dry lately) have been soaking up this gorgeously hydrating balm.

All The Physic Garden products are cruelty free, natural, zero waste and handmade in Australia. 

I purchased my Luna Body Balm for $32.95. This is a limited edition product so I'm not sure how long it will be around for.

Sunday, 9 December 2018

Thoughts of the week

1. I've now completed one full week of training at the gym. I am now seriously reconsidering my life choices. I have never been so sore, exhausted and hungry. FML.

2. This is the best twitter thread I've seen in a long time.

3. Speaking of twitter, I'm trying to be more active on there. Trying and failing. I just don't have anything interesting to say.

4. Mecca now have free shipping for orders over $35. I think I may have already mentioned this, but it's worth mentioning again.

5. This week I received the Koh cleaning products that I purchased in their Black Friday sale. They are amazing!

Friday, 7 December 2018

FFS Friday - Ranting again

What is it with parent bashing? I'm constantly seeing articles saying how parents are doing such a bad job. It's crazy. I suppose that's what society is all about at the moment, making people feel inadequate so that they'll spend money in an effort to feel better.

Society would be so much happier if we spent our time building people up instead of tearing them down.

The latest annoying article I read was about mobile phones. Have you ever noticed how much we demonise the mobile phone? The person who wrote the article watched people at the park and noted how much time they spent on their phones instead of watching their kids.

Funny that they didn't note how much time parents who weren't on their phones spent not paying attention to their kids. That would have defeated the purpose because they were mobile phone bashing. 

If I was sitting at the park reading a book or chatting to a friend, no-one would have anything negative to say. If I was sitting there on my mobile phone, I'm a bad parent. 

The silly thing is, I could be doing very worthwhile things with my phone. I could be working, paying bills, replying to emails, setting up appointments or play dates for the kids, all types of valid, useful things. 

Technology is a part of life now. How about instead of bashing people for using it, we teach them how to utilise technology in a healthy, beneficial way?

Or even better, how about we butt out, mind our own business and let other people parent however they want to. Works for me. 

Wednesday, 5 December 2018

Lanolips Rose Gold 101 Ointment

My love for Lanolips is no secret. Lanolips bought the beautiful Emma into my life, something for which I'll be eternally grateful. 
Whenever Lanolips launches a new product I need it. When it's a limited edition rose gold 101 ointment, I really, really need it. 
That's not true. I don't need it, I want it. I've been considering how I talk about beauty products and purchases in general. I've decided to change my language. The majority of the time I don't need things, I want them. From now on that's what I'll say. I'm hoping that will help not only me, but the boys as well. Really, the only things I need to purchase is food, almost everything else is a want not a need.

But, back to rose gold. She's beautiful. Just look at her.

This is a limited edition product, available exclusively at Sephora in Australia. I don't understand why companies do that. It's annoying having to shop at a specific store when Lanolips is so widely available. Plus, a large majority of the population will be forced to shop online, further adding to the cost. 

I was lucky enough to be on holidays near a Sephora store when rose gold launched, so I was able to head in store and pick one up.

This is such a gorgeous product. The packaging is as beautiful as the product, I'd buy it just to look at the tube sitting on my bench. 

If you have the regular 101 ointment, the texture is very similar, just with a slightly more matte finish when it dries down.

I've been using my rose gold ointment as both a blush and lip balm. Whilst red might seem way too bright for a blush, it sheers out well and adds a healthy glow to my cheeks. I use a very small amount on each cheek and blend it out. 

Rose gold layers well, so can either be a sheer flush of lip colour or applied in a thicker layer for opaque coverage. Being an ointment, you get all the benefits of a hydrating lip balm, with the bonus of a gorgeous tint. 

The shade is a true red with gold glitter. Once the product is on you can't really see the glitter, but you can see it in the swatch above. It has a gorgeous shimmer, without any obvious chunks of glitter. 

As with the original 101 ointment, rose gold has no flavour or fragrance.

Lanolips Rose Gold 101 Ointment costs $19 AUD for a 9 gram tube.

Monday, 3 December 2018

Invisible Zinc Sheer Defense SPF50 Moisturiser

I think I'm losing my beauty blogging mojo. I still want to talk, but am not at all motivated to talk about beauty products. I've been feeling a bit blah about make-up lately, it's not exciting me like it use to. 
Maybe it's just stress and I'll be back to normal soon. Who knows?

One product I do want to talk about is the new Invisible Zinc Sheer Defense SPF50 moisturiser.

Now that it's heating up in Australia, daily sunscreen is a must. Truth be told, I wear sunscreen every day, all year round. I've decided to make the switch to physical sunscreen so have been on the hunt for a new one. When I saw that the new Invisible Zinc is a physical sunscreen, I grabbed a bottle.

I am very sensitive to sunscreen, most of them irritate my skin or eyes. I'm yet to find a sunscreen I can wear on my lips and I've only found a few facial sunscreens I can wear, so the hunt for a new sunscreen is always daunting.   

Despite that I'm always up for the challenge, so whenever I see a new sunscreen I buy it. Any that I can't use on my face I'll use on my arms so they don't go to waste. 

I purchased the tinted moisturiser in light first. The tint is very light, it's almost undetectable. It brightens my complexion and helps to even out my skintone a little, however I like more coverage so usually wear it under foundation. It also works well on top of foundation (I found that out one day when I was going out in the sun and had forgotten to put sunscreen on. I put it over the top of my foundation and it looked great, in fact I think it looked even better than when I wear it under my foundation.)

Once it's dried this is totally undetectable on my skin. It doesn't leave a film and I can't feel it. I don't find it at all hydrating, however I have dry skin. If you have oily skin this would probably provide enough hydration, if you have dry skin you'll need to wear moisturiser underneath. 

After having so much success with the tinted moisturiser I purchased the untinted version. Whilst it's nice, I don't like it as much as the tinted version. 
The untinted moisturiser comes out watery and like it's split (even though I shake it before use). I find the untinted version to be oilier and it sits on my skin instead of sinking in. It's more hydrating than the tinted balm, but the texture is not great. 

If it wasn't a new product I'd think that mine was old, however it's only just been release so that's not possible. I use the untinted one for my neck, chest and arms, on my face it's a little too greasy.

You can see from the swatches above that the texture of them is totally different. 

At $34 for a 50g tube it's not cheap, however it's regularly on sale at Coles and Woolworths, which is when I stock up. I paid around $23 for my first tube and $17 for the second tube. 

Have you tried Invisible Zinc Sheer Defense? 
What's your favourite facial sunscreen?

Sunday, 2 December 2018

Thoughts of the week

1. This is my friend Amanda. She's one of my favourite people ever. That this idiot got away with what he did is an absolute joke. 
Being mentally unfit should not be a get out of jail free card, the person should still have to serve the time, at an appropriate facility.

2. If you love Lush Rose Jam shower gel, you'll be thrilled to know that it's permanent now! Yay!

3. I started at the gym on Friday. I'm hoping that this time I'll be able to keep going. Now that the boys are older they should be fine spending time in the creche and I'll finally be able to get strong again. I really miss being strong. 

4. Mecca now have free shipping for orders $35 and over!

5. The Perth Childrens Hospital is amazing. Despite all the setbacks, they've done an amazing job. Parking isn't a total rip off either, unlike the other public hospitals in Perth.

Friday, 30 November 2018

FFS Friday - I'm back, again.

Hello! I'm back after another unplanned hiatus. November has been a write off for me blog wise. Hopefully all the drama is over now and I'll be back to normal posting. 

The last few weeks have been a blur. Chai got sick and after being misdiagnosed by three different Dr's, five days later we finally got the right diagnosis and I had to race him to Perth for emergency surgery. It was awful.

My Mum and Step Dad had just returned from a five week vacation, they'd got back home at 2am, I called at 1pm asking Mum to come to the hospital with me. 

Tiger flew home from work but didn't make it before Chai went into surgery, so it was very lucky that Mum was with me, because I needed someone to stay with Eljay.

Chai is okay, the surgery went well and he's on the mend now. We're all hoping there are no long term effects from him being undiagnosed for five days, but that's just something we have to wait and see. 

Parenting can be so very stressful. Sometimes I wonder where all the stress goes. When I was in the Dr's surgery being told that Chai had to have surgery, I was so, so stressed. I wanted to cry but had to hold it together for Chai and Eljay. The whole time I was packing our stuff and driving to Perth I was doing my best to be calm and happy so the kids stayed calm, whilst inside I was in total panic mode.

What happens to all those suppressed emotions? There are days I feel like I'm going to explode, but of course that never happens. By the time it gets to a place where I can let out all the emotions, the situation has resolved and I'm over it. 

Suppressing emotions isn't healthy, but as a parent sometimes it's just the way it has to be. Perhaps one day I'll explode and all that will be left of me is a huge pile of glitter. 


Sunday, 18 November 2018

Thoughts of the week

1. There are so many great holiday sets available at the moment, what have you all bought? I've restrained myself so far, but will probably give in to temptation the next time I have a stressful day.

2. Why are so many tv shows really dark now? I like fun, light hearted shows. I don't watch tv when Tiger is away, when he's home we like to watch something together. We're struggling to find anything. We used to watch Arrow and Riverdale, but they both got too dark and depressing. Suggestions?

3. Why do people love to argue with strangers online? I don't understand. It's okay if someone has a different opinion to you.

4. You know what I really don't like? When you're browsing or shopping online and you keep on getting those pop ups that tell you what someone just bought. I don't give a flying fart what someone else just bought. It's a great way to quickly lose a customer, because every time I'm on a site with those pop ups I leave and shop elsewhere.

5. It's great that Trolley Man tried to help the police during the Melbourne attack, but I really don't think he was helping. Instead of focusing on their job, the police also had to worry about Trolley Man and try to ensure he was safe, instead of being able to subdue the crim.
It's great that people want to help, but sometimes the professionals just need to be left to do their job. 

Friday, 16 November 2018

FFS Friday - Still complaining

After Mondays rant you might have thought that I was out of things to whinge about. I'm not. 

There's nothing like a family holiday to make you feel like you're a crap parent. I see all these photos of families having wonderful holidays, happy, parents, happy kids. 
Then there's us. We go on holiday and my kids spend the whole time whinging, asking for things, complaining about having to walk so far and being totally ungrateful.

Despite us doing our best to raise the boys well, not spoil them, teach them manners and make sure they turn into decent people, there are times I feel like we're failing dismally.  

Chai's sensory issues add a whole other set of problems. 
At home it's easy to forget that he's not just a normal little boy. Other than a few clothing or noise related meltdowns here and there, he's just a regular kid. Take him out of his comfort zone and everything comes to the surface. What might not bother him at home is a huge issue when we're on holidays. 

Noise sends him into a foetal position on the ground with his hands over his ears, not being able to see me has him calling out for me in a panicked voice, having to wear shoes causes a meltdown, not having the particular pair of shorts that he wants to wear causes another meltdown. Thinking that he's upset Tiger or I makes him think he's ruined everything and he's an awful person, people walking close behind startle him, men talking in a foreign language have him jumping on me in fear, the list goes on. 

I'm more aware of and attuned to the signs of Chai being in distress, so I stay close and watch him carefully, ready to act before a meltdown starts. It's exhausting. I'm emotionally drained and just want to go home. Tiger gets frustrated because Chai won't snap out of it (he can't!) 

It's times like this I'm reminded of the extra challenges that my boy faces and my heart breaks for him. Whilst we've never told him that he has any issues, he has heard the word sensory so asks about it. I've told him that we all have a sensory profile and different things irritate us. He wants to know why these things bother him so much. So far I've managed to convince him that he's just like everyone else, I'm not sure how much longer he'll believe me. 

I wish my baby didn't have to deal with these challenges and he could be just like everyone else. Our life would be so different without sensory processing disorder.

The night before we came home we went out for dinner. As we were waiting for our meals to arrive a beautiful family walked past. The parents were walking in front, talking and  holding hands. They wore nice looking casual clothes and relaxed, happy smiles. Just behind them were their two daughters in gorgeous matching outfits, with cute handbags, sparkly shoes and their hair in pigtails. They were happily walking along, not complaining, just walking along with their parents. 

Meanwhile there's me watching them. I'm exhausted, weeing myself every time I cough (which is approximately every ten minutes), my hair is a mess, my t-shirt has a mark on it from Chai wiping his mouth on me and there's another mark on my pants from Eljay's hands. Chai is running around chasing an Ibis and Eljay is kicking the table because it makes a really loud noise. I'm at one end of the table, Tiger is at the other end and we can't talk because the boys are making too much noise. 

I looked at that family and thought about how different my life could have been. Despite how messy, stressful and difficult as my life is, I'm grateful for my beautiful family and wouldn't change it for a second. 

Actually, that's not true, I would change the weeing myself issue.

Wednesday, 14 November 2018

October empties

Now that I'm back from my unplanned hiatus, it's time to talk empties. I had a pretty good month for empties, all of my skincare ran out at the same time, which was both great and very annoying!

L'oreal Botanicals Lavender Conditioning Balm
This is such a gorgeous range, one that I'll happily repurchase. The lavender scent is lovely.

L'oreal Elvive Instant Miracle
I'm yet to find a hair mask that I think is amazing. This one works well, it hydrates and leaves my hair feeling soft, which is exactly what you expect from an intensive hydrating mask. 

Batiste Blush Dry Shampoo
There's not much to say about Batiste that hasn't already been said. This is a cult favourite for a reason, I always have it in my collection.

BX Earth A Bit of a Soft Touch Shower Gel
If you have yet to try BX shower gels, you are missing out. They're natural, Australian owned and made and super cheap. I picked this one up from Chemist Warehouse for $5, which is such great value! The scent is beautiful and as it's so cheap I don't mind that the boys waste most of it!

Biologica Citrus Rose Hand and Body Wash
The reason I don't write about hand washes is because they are boring. Really boring. Plus, there's not much to say about them. This one smells lovely and didn't dry out my hands. I don't remember where I bought it, but I'd happily buy it again. 

Black Chicken Barrier Booster Deodorant Paste
There are four natural deodorants that work for me, this is one of them. It doesn't irritate sensitive pits, contains no bi-carb soda and keeps me odour free all day. 

The Body Shop Vanilla Brulee Bath Jelly
I don't know why I keep buying bath products when I don't take baths. Silly. 
I purchased this from The Body Shop, it was one of their christmas releases a few years ago. The scent is beautiful, I wish they'd make other products with the same scent. I used this as a shower gel, it felt lovely and left me smelling edible. 

Kosmea Rose Hand Cream
I'm a sucker for anything rose scented so absolutely loved this hand cream. It smells amazing and kept my hands feeling soft. I used this at night, however it'd be fine to use during the day as it absorbs quickly and doesn't leave a greasy residue.

Bobbi Brown Hydrating Face Cream
Hydrating Face Cream is exactly what I needed throughout winter. My skin has felt a lot drier since this ran out, I really need to repurchase it! Despite being super hydrating, it absorbs quickly and works well under make-up. 

Andalou Naturals Meyer Lemon + C Creamy Cleanser
I'm always sceptical of cleansers that say they'll brighten the complexion, I don't believe they're on your skin long enough to have an effect, but then again, what would I know?
Having said that, this cleanser did not brighten my skin tone. It was pleasant to use, didn't sting my eyes and removed my make-up. I like that it comes with a pump, it's so much easier! I'd happily purchase this again next time it's on sale at Priceline. 

Model Co Cream Cleanser
I love Model Co's cream cleanser. It's regularly on sale for $5, so I always grab a few tubes. It's super gentle, easily removes make-up and doesn't irritate my eyes. 

Raww Smooth ME Fine Line Serum
I'm starting to build up quite a collection of Raww products, it's such a lovely brand. If you aren't a fan of scented products, I'd steer clear, however if you like products that smell great, check them out.
I really enjoyed the Fine Line Serum, it smells amazing, absorbs quickly and kept my skin feeling soft and looking smooth.

Clarins Skin Beauty Repair Concentrate
If you have sensitive skin, get yourself a bottle of Skin Beauty Repair Concentrate. It's expensive, but worth every cent. I use mine in winter when my skin is feeling dry, tight and irritated, it calms things down and my skin is back to normal within a week. I also use it when I'm suffering from allergies. This is one of those products that I always have in my collection. 

Clarins HydraQuench Intensive Serum
For something that feels like water, this is amazingly effective. I've gone through about four bottles so far and am about to purchase another bottle, because my skin has been very dry since I ran out. 

Skin Republic Brightening Eye Mask
I love the Skin Republic eye masks, however I prefer the under eye gel ones. This one is nice, but I didn't find it as effective as the gel ones are, so I won't repurchase.  

Model Co Instant Hydro-Glow Miracle Mask
Model Co products have been on sale all over the place lately, I picked this mask up for $2. At that price I figured I had nothing to lose. It's an interesting mask, it comes with a cleanser and serum that you use first, then you put the mask on. They say that the serum intensifies the effect of the mask. 
I didn't notice any glow or miracles, but it was pleasant to use, it left my skin feeling soft and hydrated. 

Addition Studio Australian Native Body Scrub
One day I will get clever and stop buying scrubs that aren't coffee, salt or sugar. I never like them. This one was particularly bad. It's very wet, hard to pick up and dissolves almost instantly. 

Mecca Max Lip Mask
If you're after a totally ineffective lip mask, this one is for you. If you want one that actually does something, steer clear. I had to lie down whilst I had this on because it slips all over the place, it provided no hydration and was a waste of time. I can see why it gets such bad reviews on Mecca's website. 

Dr LeWinn's Ultra R4 Collagen Firming Face mask
The trouble with face masks is that you really need to use them more than once to form an opinion. I did like this mask, next time Dr LeWinn's is on sale I'll buy more so that I can test them out further. 

Bean Body Coffee Bean Scrub
What's not to love about a good coffee scrub? They're so great, I love the grains, the coffee smell and how smooth they leave my skin. This one had a gorgeous coffee coco berry scent, it's one I'll definitely purchase again.
When I purchased this I also got their lip balm, it's amazing!

Garnier Skin Active Hydra Bomb Tissue Mask
Next time these are on sale, grab a few. They're great, cheap hydrating masks that are ideal for dry, parched skin. 

100% Pure Ginseng Collagen Boost Face Mask
I had this on for about three minutes then had to remove it because it was stinging so badly.


After sticking to the same products every day for the last few months, I realised that I need to start going through my Use it or Lose it pile. Most of these products have now been sent to a better home.

Dishonourable mention goes to the RMS lipstick. I really wanted to love it, but it's one of the worst lipsticks I've ever tried. It drags across my lips and is awful to apply. Such a disappointment. I should have returned it to Mecca, not sure why I didn't. 

Monday, 12 November 2018

FFS Friday - Did you miss me?

After an unplanned hiatus I'm back! It's been a while! How are you? What's been happening?
What better post to come back with than every ones favourite, FFS Friday (yes, I'm aware it's not Friday).

Where have I been? Well let me tell you.

The boys got sick. When I say sick, I mean really, really sick. Sicker than they've ever been in their lives. 
Whilst being sick isn't great, they timed it perfectly. 

Chai got sick at 6pm, with gastro. Why do kids always get gastro at night time? My boys have only ever gotten gastro at night, ensuring that no-one gets any sleep. Chai started vomiting at 6pm, poor little man couldn't even keep down water. Thankfully Tiger was home, so we decided that I'd sleep in Chai's bed and Eljay would sleep in our bed with Tiger. 

I was up and down with Chai vomiting. To add to the fun, at 11pm Eljay started vomiting. He woke up as the vomiting started so didn't make it to the edge of the bed. Between both boys we changed the sheets four times that night and we were up over ten times. Very little sleep occurred.

Now you may be wondering why I say their illness was well timed. Because Tiger was home. They got sick the night before he flew out. It meant that the night both boys were vomiting, I didn't have to deal with it on my own. 

Tiger left for work the next day, we were both exhausted. The boys still couldn't even keep down water, so I set them up on the couch and the poor little mites slept all day. By that evening they'd stopped vomiting and could drink water. They were burning up, one minute they'd be hot the next they'd be shivering. 

For two days they just slept. They'd wake up, I'd carry them to the toilet then they'd go back to sleep. I was madly dosing myself up on every immune tonic I could find, hoping that I didn't get sick too. By the third day their fevers were easing but they still weren't eating, they had no energy and they couldn't sit up. I was optimistically hoping that I had avoided the germs, but I hoped in vain. I was sitting on the lounge suite cuddling the boys on the afternoon of the third day when I started shaking uncontrollably with a fever. Thankfully I didn't get the vomiting part, just the fever, no energy, feeling like death part.

On the fourth day the boys were still really sick (as was I) so I took them to the Dr who told me that it was just a virus. That was good news because it'd taken all my energy to drive us to the Dr and there's no way I could have made it to the chemist if they needed antibiotics.

Day five was the first time they tried eating, they had two strawberries and a few blueberries but that was all they could handle. 

It wasn't until day seven that they could sit up. Being sick all at the same time worked out well because we just lay on the couch unable to do anything. Thankfully none of us had an appetite, there's no way I could have prepared a meal. I did do an online shop, but it's so difficult to find healthy pre-prepared meals that kids will eat!

All up we were sick for two weeks. The whole time Tiger was away we were sick. Whilst that wasn't great, it meant that when he got home we were well rested, usually he gets home and I'm an exhausted mess.

The day after Tiger got home we went on holidays. I was still recovering (and still am now, I can't get rid of the cough, it just won't go away) but again, that worked quite well because it meant we were forced to relax.

It's been a while since we've had a family holiday so I'd forgotten how difficult it is for Chai to cope with a change of routine. For the first four days his anxiety was through the roof. He was so difficult to deal with. The poor little mite was trying his best (and doing a bloody brilliant job) of controlling himself, but it was a huge struggle for him. I hate seeing my baby in that state. Tiger does not cope with Chai when he's like that, so it's left for me to deal with. 

I'm amazed how how emotionally mature Chai is and how strong his will. For a seven year old he coped really well, he knew his anxiety/spd was causing issues and he tried so very hard. At one stage he was shaking with the effort of controlling himself so that he didn't explode, but he did it! I was so very proud of him this whole trip.  

Chai's struggles meant that the first four days were tough, really tough. I was exhausted from dealing with Chai and just wanted to go home. Thankfully after day four things got better and he coped a lot better. He was still super anxious but he wasn't having meltdowns all day.

We managed to relax and enjoy our holiday, the boys did a lot of swimming, we went to a wildlife park, did a little bit of shopping and a whole lot of relaxing. 

I went to Sephora for my first time and was sorely disappointed. The Pacific Fair store was out of stock of so many things that I wanted. We'd budgeted for me to spend around $500, I spent $97. Everything that I wanted to look at was out of stock, a lot of the displays were more than half empty. They had a big, unfriendly security guard stalking around the store. I don't know why they bothered because there was no stock to steal. I thought the online store was bad for having so many products out of stock, but they have way more stock available than Pacific Fair did!

Overall the holiday was a success. We got home yesterday and now I'm busily doing all the fun post holiday washing. I think I have about 300 loads to do.

One lovely thing that has occurred since my illness is that I now wee myself every time I cough. Considering I'm still doing my best to cough up a lung, that's a lot of wee. Fun times. Luckily I'm starting at the gym in a few weeks, so I'll be focusing on my pelvic floor exercises!

That's the end of my whinge/overshare for today, back to regular posts as soon as I escape from Mt Washmore.