Saturday, 31 May 2014

Thoughts of the month

1. I have a new pair of slippers. It's a bit sad how happy they make me. I feel like I'm walking on clouds, it's heavenly.

2. The budget that has just come out scares me silly. Charging our most vulnerable people to go to the Dr, increasing the cost of medication, letting universities charge their own fees, not paying Newstart to people under 30 are just a few of the things that worry me. I am praying that it doesn't make it through the senate. 

3. I am also highly suspicious of the budget. The govt has already said that they are willing to compromise on some parts of it. This makes me suspect that they have lots of horrible little changes they want to get through, so they'll compromise on the big issues that everyone is screaming about so that they can get the awful little things through. I hope I'm just overly suspicious. 

4. We've had so much rain lately, it's been wonderful.

5. My lovely friend Raylene is making a candle in honour of her beautiful daughter Ariel. Ariel has Downs Syndrome and due to this she will likely need to live at home until well into her adulthood. Sales of the candle will her secure her future. 15% of the proceeds will go to the Downs Syndrome Association NSW and Lifestart NSW. I can't wait to buy it. 

6. That's all I've got this month. 

Friday, 30 May 2014

FFS Friday - Shoe lover

It has been lovely and wet here lately. I love winter, it's my favourite season, at least it was prior to having children. Now, it's not so much fun. Especially now we are living in the country and there is nothing to do here when it's raining. FFS.

Saturday Chai announced that he wanted to go to Kmart. FFS.

I asked him why and he said he wanted a car. FFS.

It was very wild and stormy, however I needed to go to the supermarket so we headed out. When we got to Kmart Chai decided that he needed a new pair of shoes. FFS.

He carefully examined all of the shoes until he found the ones that he wanted. FFS.

Every time I tried to persuade him to leave he'd say "Hang on a second Mummy, I'm just looking for something". FFS.

Where does he get this from?

Sunday the kids were going crazy after being locked up inside for a few days, so I decided to take a trip to Bunnings (they have an indoor playground). Thanks to both boys playing up, it took me two hours to get us all ready to leave the house. FFS.

We found the stuff we needed at Bunnings and parked our trolley containing all our things outside the playground whilst Chai played. When we were in there someone came along and stole the trolley. FFS.

Thankfully they left our shopping on the chair so I didn't have to go and get it all again. Not FFS.

I had Eljay in the carrier and he wanted to get out, so I put him down. He immediately climbed up the stairs and stood at the top of the play gym thingo screaming with delight. It's the first time he's seen stairs. FFS.

Unsatisfied with just standing there screaming, he then decided to crawl all through the play ground, with me crawling after him. Those playgrounds are not made for adults. FFS.

When we'd finished at Bunnings I couldn't face the thought of heading home so we went to Subway to get lunch. They didn't have any high chairs. FFS.

Eljay refused to stay in the carrier so I took him out and held him. Imagine trying to hold of 9kg's of wriggly jelly with one hand, feed it with the other, wrangle a three year old and feed yourself all at the same time. It was fun. FFS.

When we got home Chai spent the whole afternoon alternately trying to maim his brother and crying because "We miss Daddy so, so much. I want Daddy to come back now. I need Daddy". 

I hate him being upset about Tiger being away. FFS.

We all know how in love I am with my coffee machine. After my family it's my one true love. Monday I nearly killed it. FFS.

I made my morning coffee and prior to drinking it (big mistake), I refilled it with coffee. I opened the packet and poured a huge serving in, then realised I'd used pre ground coffee instead of beans. FFS.

It was all through the machine and no matter what I did I couldn't get it out. FFS.

I tried using the dustbuster, didn't work. FFS.

I tried using a spoon, didn't work. FFS.

I tried using the dishcloth, didn't work. FFS.

I tried using my fingers, didn't work. FFS.

Then I came up with the genius idea of using the vacuum and it worked a treat. Not FFS.

My beloved coffee machine is fine. Not FFS.

I was severely traumatised. FFS.

I'm not sure I'll ever recover from the shock. FFS.

Dear Baby G

Friday, 23 May 2014

FFS Friday - Country bogan

I've only just realised that today is Friday. Oops. Most of the day I thought it was Saturday, despite thinking that it didn't occur to me that I hadn't written my FFS Friday post. Being woken up at 4.30am this morning might have something to do with it. FFS.

Waking up at 4.30am makes for such a long day. FFS.

I refuse to put the boys to bed early because then they'll wake up early again and it'll start a pattern. FFS.

Instead we all struggled through the day. FFS.

I started counting down the hours till bedtime at 10am. FFS. 

Eljay got no sleep all day because every time I got him to sleep Chai woke him up. FFS.

This meant that Eljay wanted to be held all day and just to make things fun, Chai wanted to cuddle all day. FFS.

I just wanted them both to leave me alone to sleep. FFS.

Thankfully we have all recovered from our flu, however I feel really ripped off. I was sick the whole time Tiger was home so didn't get to enjoy having him here. FFS.

On the other hand, I'm bloody grateful he was here because trying to look after my sick babies on my own whilst I was sick would have been a living hell. FFS.

Four days before Tiger left, Chai started crying about Daddy going away. FFS.

It breaks my heart seeing him so upset. FFS.

This morning he woke up crying because we are never, ever going to see Daddy again. FFS.

The day Tiger went back to work I was putting bub to sleep when Chai walked in all upset. FFS.

He'd done a poo in his pants. FFS.

There was crap everywhere. FFS.

Needless to say, Eljay woke up. FFS.

Poor Eljay was exhausted, Chai was in tears cause he'd crapped everywhere and he wanted Daddy. FFS.

I hate it when things like that happen straight after Tiger leaves. FFS.

My transformation to country bogan is now complete. I'm secretly proud of this. FFS.

The telling moment came when I left the house in a cardigan, jeans and ugg boots. FFS.

In my defense, I was going to my brothers house and nowhere else, but still. FFS.

That concludes my whinges for today. If you've had any FFS worthy moments, please tell me all about them.

If you'd like to read more whinges, head over to Sarah's blog.
Dear Baby G

Wednesday, 21 May 2014

You're doing a great job Mumma

A few weeks ago I had a really bad day. It started at 4.15am, Chai was whinging and trying to kill his brother, Eljay wanted to be held all the time and cried whenever I put him down and I was exhausted. I growled at Chai several times for being his usual mischevious self, then decided to get out of the house. We went to the park then afterwards we went to the supermarket. I wasn't having a great time at the supermarket, Chai was racing around picking things up, trying to eat them, throwing things around, etc. 

I got what I needed (coffee and chocolate!) and we were in the queue. As usual, Chai was getting into everything, trying to pull the lollypop stand apart, running away, trying to get himself an ice cream etc. I'd told him at least 10 times not to touch things and stay with me, when an older man behind me started chuckling.

Turns out he had 4 boys and we had a great chat. He gave me some really helpful advice then said a few words that I really, really needed to hear. "You're doing a great job Mumma". I told him that I didn't feel like I was doing a good job, I was exhausted, grumpy with Chai and I just wanted some time out. He told me that my boys are clearly well looked after, happy children and we all have tough days. He also said that being a parent is the toughest job in the world. Then he said it again. "You're doing a great job Mumma".

I left the supermarket with a smile on my face, feeling so much better than I had when I walked in. Funnily enough, the rest of our day was great (possibly due to the coffee and chocolate I'd stocked up on).

Sometimes it just takes a few kind words from a stranger to brighten the whole day.

Monday, 19 May 2014

Cold Comfort

As you may know, I've been sick for the last few weeks. Whilst I was sick I got thinking about the products I always turn to when I'm not feeling well. We all have them, those favourite products that help comfort us when we are under the weather. I've also discovered a few new products which I think everyone should know about. Hopefully you won't need them.
Sudafed Vapour Plug - This is a subsitute for a vapouriser and in my opinion it's a lot better. We used a vapouriser all the time for Chai and it made the room so damp that we had to stop using it. The Vapour Plug has the same benefits of a vapouriser without the dampness. I don't know if it's a coincidence or not, but I hadn't been able to smell anything at all due to my sinus infection and after using the Vapour Plug for just one night I could smell again the next morning.

Bosisto's Echinacea Throat Spray - I discovered this at Priceline when I was stocking up on all my cold and flu essentials. There were three different flavours, I chose honey and lemon, which is very pleasant tasting. This is supposed to help soothe a sore throat and ease coughing. I didn't find that it helped with coughing at all, however it did a great job of soothing my sore throat. 

Squeezy tube lip balm - Lip balm is essential when I have a cold, all that breathing through my mouth leaves me with dry, flaky lips. Maybe I'm paranoid, but when I'm sick I don't use pot or stick lip balms because I don't want to get germs all over them. I use a squeeze tube lip balm, squeeze some onto my finger and then put it onto my lips. Some of my favourites are Carmex, Lanolips and L'Occitane. 

Little Innoscents Winter Vapour Balm - This is a great, natural alternative to Vicks. Sometimes I find Vicks to be too strong for me. It's great to use on the soles of my feet, but if I put it on my chest it's overpowering. The Little Innoscents balm is all natural and not as strong as Vicks. It's safe to use on babies and children too. I put this on the kids chest and feet and night time when they aren't well and it helps to unblock their nose and stop them coughing. 

Kleenex Aloe Vera tissues - These are the only tissues we use, they are super soft and gentle on sore noses. Despite all the nose blowing I've done lately (for reference, I've used three large boxes of tissues in the last two weeks), my nose isn't red or sore at all. 

Boogie Wipes - If you ever find these, buy two packets! They are little wipes infused with saline and as the name suggests, they are for wiping up boogie. I use them on the boys when they have a runny nose as they are a lot gentler than tissues and don't contain chemicals like baby wipes do. I get mine from Big W in the section with the tissues, but they aren't always in stock.

In shower hydration - When I'm sick my skin gets super dry so it needs extra tlc. I usually can't be bothered with all over moisturising so I use an in shower hydrator such as Lush Ro's Argan (which has the added benefit of smelling amazing) or a body oil. If you haven't used a body oil in the shower, it's super easy. You just rub it all over yourself, rinse off then pat dry and you're left with super soft, moisturised skin. Easy.

Face oil - Continuing on with the all over hydration, face oils are a must have. Days when I'm not wearing any makeup or leaving the house are great for giving my skin a huge hydration boost so I apply a face oil then put a rich moisturiser over the top to seal it in. I'm using the Franc Intense Skin Rescue serum at the moment. It's a lovely oil that sinks in quickly and leaves my parched skin feeling soft and hydrated.

Hand cream - All the hand washing I do when I'm sick means that I'm constantly slathering on hand cream. It'd be great if we had antibacterial hand creams here. I have one from Bath and Body Works that's amazing, it smells lovely, hydrates and sanitises my hands all at once. Anyhow, I'm using the Aurora Spa Rituals Rose and Shea Hand and Cuticle Cream at the moment. It has a beautiful rose scent, is very rich and is quickly absorbed.

Cough lollies - Anticol and Vicks Butter Menthol are my favourites. Anitcol is very effective at stopping the horrible asthma cough that I get, so I always have a few packets on hand.

Comfy pj's - This goes without saying really, but a pair of comfy warm pj's are a must!

Here's hoping that none of you need these tips! What are your cold and flu essentials?

Friday, 16 May 2014

FFS Friday - The toxic edition

I am still sick. FFS.

In fact, I'm pretty sure I'm toxic. FFS.

If you have anyone that you don't like, send them over to my house and I'll infect them for you.

To add insult to injury, I've discovered that I can have the flu shot. FFS.

I was under the impression that I couldn't have it because I was breastfeeding, but that's not the case. Also, by me having it I'll transfer some immunity to bub. 

Our house has been all about coughing fits, Dr's visits and snot infused clothes this week. FFS.

We've been at the Dr five times in the last seven days. FFS.

Thankfully Chai is nearly better, but not quite. FFS.

He's at that stage where he's well enough to want to do things, but not well enough to actually do much. FFS.

This means there is lots of whinging and whining going on. FFS.

Mostly from me. FFS.

Joking, it's from Chai. FFS.

I struggle to deal with whinging when I'm well, but when I'm sick it drives me crazy. FFS.

Eljay is still sick and so wants me all the time. FFS.

I can't put him down or walk two steps away without him crying. Real crying, tears and all. FFS.

He can say mum now so if I dare walk away from him all I hear is him crying Mummummummummum. FFS.

Tiger has been trying his best to give me a break but it's really difficult when both boys want me all the time. FFS.

Yesterday Tiger started to get sick too. FFS.

He has to go back to work in a few days. FFS.

Never one to do things by halves, I got properly sick. FFS.

Not only did I get the flu, I also got a sinus infection and my asthma has reared it's head again. FFS.

I've got drugs for the asthma and they are working nicely, but thanks to breastfeeding I can't take anything for the sinus infection. FFS.

It's a really good sinus infection too, one that leaves me with a pounding headache, sore face, aching teeth and sore ears. Joy of joys. FFS.

After nearly coughing up a lung and coughing until I vomited for several nights, I had to go to the Dr on Sunday. Big mistake. FFS.

$100 later I left the Dr's surgery. FFS.

Then I spent $78 at the chemist. FFS.

And it was mother's day. FFS.

We just manage to make ends meet so coming up with that sort of money wasn't easy, but we managed. I'd hate to think what someone who's really struggling would do, I imagine they wouldn't get the medical care that they need. That's only going to get worse if this budget passes through the senate. $7 for a Dr visit and an extra $5 for a prescription might not seem like much but for some it could mean they don't eat that night. And if they dare go to the emergency department because they can't afford to go to a Dr's surgery, they'll get charged there too! FFS.

On that note I'll leave you. Please don't get too close to the screen as you might catch my toxic germs and get sick.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. If you'd like to read more whinges, head over to Sarah's blog. I might actually remember to add my link to her post this week! 

Dear Baby G

Wednesday, 14 May 2014

Mini haul from Fresh Fragrances and Cosmetics

Hands up who's never heard of Fresh Fragrances and Cosmetics? I hadn't either until recently, but I'm certainly glad I know about them now. I received a $50 voucher to spend on products from Fresh (the rest of the cost I paid myself).

There are so many great products on Fresh that it took me ages to decide what to buy. They have a huge range of brands that aren't available here. They also have products that have just been released and products that aren't available in Australia yet. 
Joeur Cashmere Creme Eyeshadow - This was the first product that went into my cart. I've wanted to try Joeur products for ages and this looks so pretty. 
I did take a photo before I smooshed my finger into the product, but it turned out all blurry, hence the photo above.
Lancome Lip Lover - I've been reading about these on US blogs and knew that I needed one, so when I saw them on the site I put one in my cart straight away! I'm not sure if these are available on counters yet, so if you want one (and trust me, you do want one), Fresh is the place to find them.  
Guerlain Baume De La Ferte lip balm - I bought this because I'm looking for something to stop the fine lines that I see around my mouth when I pucker my lips and this is supposed to be good for that, plus, it's Guerlain and a lip balm so I couldn't resist. 

Fresh have a price match guarantee so if you can find the same product at a cheaper price, they'll match the price (as long as you contact them before you make your purchase). 

My purchase arrived to regional WA within 5 days which is unheard of, things usually take at least a week to get here, usually more. 

I can see this will be the first haul of many from Fresh. 
Have you ordered from Fresh before? What should I order next?
Any recommendations for a treatment to treat my lip lines? 

Monday, 12 May 2014

Time savers: The Face Shop Raspberry Roots Sleeping Mask

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All you time poor/lazy people like me will be thrilled to know that there are sleeping masks. What a brilliant idea! I have a few that I use and no idea why I haven't mentioned them yet. 

The first sleeping mask I ever used was the Face Shop Raspberry Roots Sleeping Mask. Nice long name, pretty average product. 

The Face Shop says: Drawing on the pure and natural strength of the Himalayans, extract of Himalayan raspberry root tones and lifts skin for refined facial contours.
Skin problems? Try sleeping on it with this overnight beauty mask and wake up to porcelain smooth skin. Himalayan raspberry roots and grain extract optimise elasticity and tighten pores while thoroughly hydrating and replenishing skin of lost nutrients. Additions of plant extracts in the formulation promote the natural secretion of pleasure inducing beta endorphins and stimulate the formation of collagen for more youthful skin. 

Sounds amazing doesn't it? Well as great as it sounds, I didn't find it did anything amazing for my skin, except hydrate it. Other than feeling lovely and soft, my skin looked exactly the same. I get the same results from using a regular night cream. Needless to say, if I ever finish this (which is unlikely as I don't know where it is), I won't repurchase. 

Ingredients: water, soybean seed extract, job's tears seed extract, sesame seed extract, rice bran extract, vigna rediata seed exxtract, sunflower seed extract, dipropylene glycol, alcohol denat, sodium hyaluronate, trehalose, glycerin, tephrosia purpurea seed extract, propylene glycol, carbomer, phenyl trimethicone, phenoxyethanol, peg-60 hydrogenated castor oil, methylparaben, parfum, potassium hydroxide, butylene glycol, rubus ellipiticus root extract, lactobacillus californicum ferment extract, mallotus philippenesis bark extract, machilus odoratissima bark extract, disodium edta, ethylparaben, butylparaben, propylparaben, isobutylparaben, red 33. 

Friday, 9 May 2014

FFS Friday - I'm still here

I'm sure you've all been waiting with bated breath to find out if I bled to death. You'll be pleased to know that I'm still alive.

Having said that, this may well be my last post as the boys and I have the flu. FFS.

I fear it may kill us. FFS.

Clearly I have been infected with man flu. FFS.

Living with three males, it had to happen sooner or later. FFS.

Later would have worked for me. FFS.

Both boys are really, really sick. FFS.

I hate seeing my babies sick. FFS.

We went to the Dr for the baby yesterday and I've just made an appointment for Chai tomorrow. FFS.

Chai looked like he was getting better but all of a sudden he got a lot worse last night. FFS.

It's always worse at night. FFS.

As if being sick isn't bad enough, we have the PILs here at the moment too. FFS.

Tiger got home late Tuesday night and they arrived Wednesday. FFS.

Even though we told them we are sick. FFS.

I'm sure we will infect them, which is their own fault, however with FILs poor health he really can't afford to get sick. FFS.

Despite knowing him for nine months, FIL has just started calling Eljay Eliza. FFS.

Not only is that the wrong name, it's the wrong gender too! FFS.

Seriously, WTF? FFS.

This week Tiger and I were in the kitchen when Chai picked his nose and wiped it on the wall. FFS.

Then Tier and I had the following conversation:
Tiger: Did you see what Chai just did?
Me: No.
Tiger: He picked his nose and wiped it on the wall.
Me: Gross.
Tiger: (in a very accusatory tone) Well I didn't teach him that!
Me: I did. Of course I did, I pick my nose and wipe it on the wall all the time. 

FFS. What a stupid thing to say!

That concludes my whinges for this week. I had some really funny ones but I didn't write them down so don't remember them, hopefully I'll remember them next week.

I leave you all with the conversation I had with Chai this week.
I'd just got out of the shower and Chai wanted me to go to his room with him. I told him I had to put my clothes on first. 
Chai: (pointing to my groin) And that.
Me: And what honey?
Chai: (pointing to my groin) You need to put that back on.
Me: What on?
Chai: Your penis.
Me: Mummy doesn't have a penis, Mummy has a vagina.
Chai: Oh.

A little later that day:
Chai: Are you going to put your penis back on Mummy.
Me: No, Mummy doesn't have a penis, Mummy has a vagina.
Chai: There might be spiders in there.
Me: No, there are no spiders in there.
Chai: Oh that's good. 

Bahahaha, I love the random way his brain works!

Now that you've read my ramblings, head over to Sarah's blog to read other whinges. I might even remember to add my link this week. 

If you've had any FFS worthy moments, please share them with me in the comments.  
Dear Baby G

Wednesday, 7 May 2014

April Favourites

Time for me to tell you about the products I reached for most over the past month. My skin has been really, really dry so most of my favourites this month are skin care products, I've been wearing minimal makeup and concentrating on keeping my skin hydrated.

Olay Complete Care Touch of Foundation - I'm onto my second bottle of this now. I used it religiously for months, opened the new bottle and promptly forgot about it until a month ago when I was searching my stash for a new BB cream. This is a brilliant product, it's exactly what it says, it's a moisturiser with a touch of foundation. The coverage is great, better than a tinted moisturiser but not as heavy as a foundation. Perfection. My full review is here.

Aurora Spa Rose and Shea Hand and Cuticle Cream -This has been my life saver lately, my hands are so dry that they feel like sandpaper. I use this at night time and when I wake up in the morning my hands are soft and lovely again. As an added bonus, it smells lovely.

The Body Shop Satsuma Shower Gel -I've only had this for a few days, but OMG does it smell amazing! I can see that I'll be hoarding this because they've discontinued it.

MooGoo Oil Cleansing Method - Out of all the cleansing oils I've tried, this is the one that I always come back to. It's reasonably priced, smells great, doesn't leave an oil slick on my face and easily removes all my makeup. You can read my full review here.

Franc Serum - Due to my parched skin I've been using two serums in the morning. I apply Luminesce first and then Franc over the top. Despite being an oil, Franc is absorbed very quickly and is undetectable within a few minutes. This is doing a great job of keeping my skin hydrated all. The few times I haven't used it, within a few hours my skin is feeling dry and tight. I can see this becoming a winter staple.

Percy and Reed Volumising No Oil Oil - Su gave this to me a while ago and it quickly became a holy grail product. It gives great volume to my fine, limp hair, without making it greasy or crunchy. Despite me using it every week, there is still heaps left in the bottle, a little goes a long way. If you have fine, limp hair you need this in your life.

Luminesce - I know I mentioned this last month, but I'm totally in love with it. My skin is looking clearer and I can feel the tightening as soon as I've put it on. 

Australis Mineral Inject Lip Gloss - This is one of my all time favourite lip glosses, it's perfection in a gloss. The colour is gorgeous, it smells great, it's hydrating, lasts well and it's super cheap. Rumba is the colour show, it's a mlbb shade for me. My full review is here

Bellamer Eye Balm - I got this in one of the beauty boxes (don't remember which one) and didn't use it because it was too thick and ointment like. At the time I wondered when anyone would need such a heavy eye cream, but now I know the answer. Thanks to seasonal allergies my eyelids are really dry. I've been putting shea butter on them but it hasn't really helped, but the Bellamer Eye Balm has been amazing. I put it on at night and after two nights my eyelids were no longer dry.

If you've done a favourites post, please post the link so I can read your post and if you aren't a blogger, comment with your favourites, I'd love to know what you've all been using this month (so I can add everything to my ever growing wishlist).

Monday, 5 May 2014

Beauty diet update

The culling continues, I got rid of 19 more items giving me a total of 42 products culled so far. I haven't done a proper cull yet, I've just taken a few minutes whenever I can to quickly look through and toss out things I know I'll never use. The fact that I haven't done a proper cull and I've thrown out 42 products just shows how much I need to do a huge cull! I haven't done one for at least five years, so it's way overdue. 

I'd like to have a really good cull where I lay everything out, group it all up into each category, then look at what I can get rid of, however I don't know if that will happen with the kids around. They've thought it's great fun when I've been culling, they both try to get in there and grab everything so I can just imagine what they'd do if I had everything laid out.

After being a bit lazy with the Use it or Lose it pile I've got back into it and started using something from the pile every few days. Most of the products have been losers. I'm being really strict, if I don't love the product out it goes. 

Finished - 11
Culled - 42
Purchased - 4
Number of products I'm allowed to buy - 7 

I've decided that after this month I'm not going to count culled products towards my tally. Even doing it 5 out 1 in, it's a ridiculous amount of products and most of them don't need replacing. 

I have made another purchase which I'll be posting about soon so stay tuned.

Friday, 2 May 2014

Dear Eljay

My precious baby. Today you are nine months old. You are such a beautiful character. Your personality is showing more and more. You are very curious, I see you watching and taking everything in box. Your intelligence amazes me at times. I've watched you work out how to open the door and pull the toy box full of cars towards you. 

You love to explore the house and love being in the garden where you can look at ants, bugs, the trees etc. At the moment you are fascinated with the dishwasher. 

You can crawl properly when you want to, however you prefer to commando crawl as it's faster. You're still walking around holding onto furniture and you love things you can push around the house. You push around a big bucket, the high chair and Chai's stool.

Like me, you take a little bit of time to wake up and you don't want anyone else around when you are waking up. I'll pick you up and cuddle you, if anyone other than Chai looks at you, you cry. Even Daddy. I totally understand that. 

You love talking to Daddy on Skype and get all excited when you see him. When he gets home your whole face lights up and you constantly touch his face, it's beautiful to see.

You are a little chatterbox and today for the first time you said Mumma. Clever boy.

My darling boy, I am so happy that you chose me, you are the light of my life and I love you more than words can express. 

FFS Friday - Drama Queen

Happy Friday everyone! I hope you've all survived the week, the first full week back at work after a few long weekends is always tough.

It's quite possible that this will be my final post, I fear I may be slowly bleeding to death. Dramatic much?

Yesterday, I cut my finger. Badly. FFS. 

I'm pretty sure I cut it to the bone. FFS.

I'm always so careful when I'm cutting things and of course the one time I wasn't careful, I nearly killed myself. FFS.

That was a total exaggeration. 

I was making myself a very late lunch and feeding Eljay his dinner when Chai decided he wanted some food too. Eljay ran out of food so he started screaming for more food and Chai came racing over trying to get food. I was using the knife to peel a piece of cucumber, slipped and sliced my little finger open. FFS.

I had Chai standing next to me trying to grab the knife to cut himself some cucumber, Eljay screaming for more food and blood gushing out of my finger. FFS.

I gabbed a handful of napkins that were on the bench and wrapped them around my finger, got Chai his cucumber, gave Eljay more food and he kept on screaming. FFS.

Great. I needed to sort my finger out and Eljay wouldn't stop screaming. FFS.

Thankfully when I took him out of the highchair he stopped crying, so I was able to wash my finger and get a cloth to put on it. Then it wouldn't stop bleeding. FFS.

Two hours later it was still bleeding. FFS.

Four hours later it was still bleeding. FFS.

I wrapped two bandaids really tightly around it and hoped for the best. FFS.

I suspect that it might have needed stitches, but I'm a tough mutha so I didn't bother. 

(Truth be told, I didn't have anyone who could come with me and I couldn't drive, but tough mutha sounds so much better so we'll just pretend that's the real reason)

The real tragedy in the whole situation is that I burnt the haloumi. FFS.

There are few things worse than burnt haloumi. FFS.

This swing has been a huge struggle. Chai is missing Tiger more and more every time he goes away. It's heartbreaking seeing him so upset. FFS.

He's been so clingy the last few weeks, he won't let me out of his sight and has to be touching me at all times. It's driving me crazy. FFS.

I trip over him at least 10 times a day because he follows so closely behind me. FFS.

We've had a lot of discussions about how we miss Daddy and Daddy misses us, we talk to Tiger twice a day and count down the days till Daddy will be home. Chai knows that Daddy is coming home, he tells me that, but he's really struggling at the moment. FFS.

The worst thing is I don't know how to make it better. FFS.

The part that I'm really sick of is when I go to the toilet. He stands there next to the toilet with his head on my shoulder. I am not joking. FFS.

As frustrating as it is, it's also rather funny. Especially when I'm doing a poo. He has a weak stomach and can't stand the the mention of poo let alone the smell, so lucky my poo smells like roses. Hahaha, joking!

Anyhow, when he smells my poo he starts dry retching, but he still won't leave my sight. Bahahaha and FFS at the same time.  

Motherhood! I wouldn't change it for the world. 

If you've had any FFS worthy moments, please tell me all about them in the comments. 
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Have a wonderful weekend! 

Dear Baby G